Happy Friday Eve friends!
Have you ever had those days where your mind goes on a wild goose chase of a million questions and scenarios? *Raises Hand*
I recently encountered a situation at my job that left me feeling vulnerable, weirded out and mad. But, mostly I was anxious.
Anxious about how it would affect me. Filled with the anxiety of 'What If?'
- What if this affects my position?
- What if this counts against me?
- What if I get in trouble?
- What if, what if, what if....?
My mind was in full velocity worry mode - heart racing, palms sweating...you get the picture. And to be honest, I couldn't shake the feeling of anxiety or the what-if questions for a couple days. I don't know about y'all, but feeling that way SUCKS. I don't like how it makes me feel emotionally, let alone physically.
While I was letting my mind wander, I felt the Holy Spirit interrupt my soliloquy.
...What If's disrupt the process of rest and eliminate your ability to trust.
Whoa. In that gentle way - like only the Holy Spirit can - he brought me out that mind-spiral pity party. I heard it once said, "Worry takes your trust off of God's ability, and puts in your own." And that's precisely what I was doing. I was worried about what I could do to make sure everything turned out okay. I hadn't even stopped to consider what Jesus had to say on the matter. And, He's the one who has the final say.
Yes, people can be weird and rude and say things against you. Yes, situations can happen that are beyond your control. But, because of that promise, as believers, we can hold our heads high with our chests out and say, SO WHAT - taking a posture of stubborn faith that digs our heels in no matter what the circumstance is.
So, next time you're like me and you're tempted to go down the rabbit hole of worry, fear, and what if's, try asking yourself....
Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. - Psalm 23:4